Why is it so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning? I feel like I am barely functioning lately. I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything. I had my Dr. prescribe me more anti-depressants, I can make myself function to get my kids out the door, and get my sorry butt to work, and as best as I can for my hubby when he is around, but I cannot make myself do anything for myself. I get kids and hubby gone, and I try to get going on something productive, and I just crawl back into my bed and hide... until the kids get out of school and I have to function for someone else.
I know I do better when I am busy, but I can't keep busy if I can't get myself where I need to go to stay busy. I hate that this positive blog to encourage me to achieve my goals has turned into a poor me and my battle with depression blog... but I have to say it has helped voicing my frustrations here, especially when I have dark thoughts I wouldn't wish on anyone.
So now I am asking my 2 readers let me know what you do to motivate yourself to get going for the day...
Day 69... poor me
About Me
- Allison
- I was married to my high school sweet heart for 16 years when he never woke up one morning leaving me to care for our 4 wonderful children alone. In the time I have been widowed I have been blessed by friends and family and grown, but there is not a day that goes by I don't miss him with all my heart. I hope my thoughts offer some encouragement to others, even if it is simply seeing I have been pretty low and still continued on as best as I could. I try to be open and honest, and welcome your thoughts and comments.
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