Thursday, December 29, 2011

A Fresh Start for a New Year...

Wow it has been quite a year, and I thought we would never top 2010 for bad years! Started school, had a year of "firsts" and ended it with a move. While the circumstances surrounding the move were not great, I think the move will be. It is in the neighborhood I grew up in, they know us and our situation... and it will force me to budget a lot more and be more frugal. After trying to be there for everyone, and help others out, while I am certain it is what Kris would have done, I now need to focus on Me and my kids. We have been through a lot this past year and I can see where we have kinda fall apart in some areas... Kris would be disappointed in us, he was all about family first.
With a new home comes new organization. I am determined to get back to my "OCD" me with little signs on the walls in rooms reminding kiddos of what is expected of them, everything in it's own place, and never a question of where it goes or where it is. I can't wait! Also I hope it will bring the kids back to reality as far as helping and contributing in their chores.
Finally after a sad first year without Kris, I am getting out. I have gone out with a friend I grew up with a couple times now and it has been great! He and I can relate on single parenting, and he knew Kris. I love that he is willing and able to talk about Kris, I think the kids like that too. I don't know where it is going, or if it anything more than friends reconnecting, but for a "first" dating experience after loss it has been a good one.
I think now where I am not in a house that consumes me, and I can focus on our family and myself, I will finally be able to get back in shape. I am going to make a better effort to avoid the junk food, and with budgeting I can't afford fast food or take out any more. I will have to budget my entertainment as well, and I always preferred something physical, so I am going to take the older kids dance class and get back into running. I felt good when I was running and looked good, I want to get back there...(CONFESSION: I have put on more weight this year being a widow than I did with ALL 4 pregnancies...)
So here is the point of my post...
GOALS for the end of the year...
   1) finish moving. Get everything of ours out of that house.
   2) figure a budget. Before I can use it, I need to know it right?
   3) clean and set up here. I can't expect them to keep it that way unless it starts that way right?
   4) plan a menu. Gotta eat, and if it is planned it is harder to justify fast food.
   5) set up food/exercise journal. I would lose weight if I don't have a plan in place.
New Years Resolutions...
   1)Keep our home clean and organized.
   2) Plan a budget and keep it, don't overspend and try to save money (Need to file my 7 so I can have that behind me and have a bank account)
   3)NO FAST FOOD! Plan on twice a month take out or pizza for family nights or birthdays, otherwise NO!
   4)Exercise daily! Running dancing sit-ups anything as long as daily I do something active!
   5) Church... I want to get back into good church habits, attending, paying tithe, FHE, scripture study.
   6) I need to focus on my kids as well, I know my school is important to provide for them, as is work, but how will they be a productive positive member of society when they are adults if I fail as a parent to teach them the skills they need and get them through school?
   7) Focus on our family and living life to it's fullest. I need to show the kids that we are not the one who died. That he wants us to have a full and happy life, how can I expect them to "move on" and function without being "stuck" or "defined" by their loss, if I don't. I will make an effort to get out and enjoy life. I will encourage them to do so as well in a positive way!

Day 124... New Year Resolutions!